Shybi 3.0

Hello Shyworld,

It’s been a while. Thought I just write what’s been on my mind and what’s been bothering me so much for the past.. Idk 5 years plus maybe.

I feel like I have been in a cycle of bad luck. Especially with jobs and lately my health has been the worst it had ever been. I never really thought much about my future.. or my dreams. But now, I feel like I want to have a dream and would like to think that I do have a future and as hopeless as I feel right now, I feel like I want to dream big for once and try to be as positive as I can even though it seems bleak and impossible.

I thought I have hit rock bottom before, but boy was I wrong. This is it. Wishing for a miracle to happen.

Oh I'm so sorry that things are so bad.

Have you been to see a doctor about your mental health? It sounds like you're feeling pretty low.

I can relate, I've had loads of health problems in the last year (mental and physical) and one exacerbation is stress. So I've bravely or stupidly quit my job. While I have no idea what I'm going to do when my notice period runs out, I needed to prioritise me.

Big virtual hug. X

Hey @MarieGreen ,

Thank you for your reply. I did see someone a long time ago and I was diagnosed with PTSD. I had to quit my job last November. It was hard but had to be done. After my health issue came about I developed extreme anxiety and could not drive to office. It’s pretty far from where I live. Now I am getting better at driving but still wouldn’t drive that far. Now 3 months after I quit I still can’t land a job. Been trying to get a remote job now but it’s very tough.

When is your last day of work? Wishing you all the best and hope you get another job soon or get whatever it is that you wish to do

I finish in May. Can't wait to be honest.

I also have PTSD and I think I'm getting at peace with it always being there. EMDR helped loads but I think for years I was searching for a cure. Perhaps there isn't one. But also perhaps that's ok? Perhaps it's just this condition I will need help with from time to time?