I can't remember when...

[CraftyNaBi27]

I can't remember the last time I dated a woman. It has been that long. I'm saddened, and it's not like I haven't tried either. It sucks because I'm an unwanted. I'm attached to a man, and to the other woman of interest, it seems like a trap.

I don't blame her for thinking that way...


HOWEVER,

It still sucks that others have ruined it for women like me. It's annoying af. Ughhh! I am not even interested in a triad. My husband and I agreed that Vee relationships are better for us. I just don't like triads. I am a one on one person. I just want a female companion. That's all.

Anyway, I'm just sitting here in the dark staring at the ceiling in bed wondering if I'll ever go on a date with a woman some time. Hell, I'll be delighted if she and I would be friends even. But it sucks when you have this desire but it fails to be fulfilled. I did all the right things to no avail. Anyway, just venting.

[VirgoGirl]

Hi. I feel sad that you are in this situation. Im kinda in the same situation myself. I had an online gf for 3 years and she ended it cause of her husband. I have been feeling so lonely lately and i long for that kind of intimacy again. Its different with a woman, so much more intense, softer and beautiful. My heart has a piece missing and i hope that i one day will find it again.

Im sorry, i did not mean to hijack your post with my venting but i just wanted you to know that you're not alone. Im sorry you feel this way, im giving you a virtual hug.

I dont think you attached to a man is a trap. Im married as well and if i can find someone who is married too and has a partner that approves of her having an online relationship with another woman, then well i think things will gell well. Guess im only dreaming.

[CraftyNaBi27]

Hi. I feel sad that you are in this situation. Im kinda in the same situation myself. I had an online gf for 3 years and she ended it cause of her husband. I have been feeling so lonely lately and i long for that kind of intimacy again. Its different with a woman, so much more intense, softer and beautiful. My heart has a piece missing and i hope that i one day will find it again.

Im sorry, i did not mean to hijack your post with my venting but i just wanted you to know that you're not alone. Im sorry you feel this way, im giving you a virtual hug.

I dont think you attached to a man is a trap. Im married as well and if i can find someone who is married too and has a partner that approves of her having an online relationship with another woman, then well i think things will gell well. Guess im only dreaming.

It's alright. I don't really talk about this much because...
1. I feel like I annoy people when I talk about it.
2. I don't want to dwell on something that does me no service; however, I should talk about it because it comes up now and then.

I'm trying to be positive, but it isn't easy. It's one of those things where I do the right things, like trying to go out more and talk to people, but to no avail; polyamory has a stigma. Also, it doesn't help when people can't distinguish polyamory and polygamy. One is ethical and equal (polyamory). The other is more from a religious standpoint and patriarchal (polygamy). That is the short rundown for those who don't know the difference.

The killer is that I can attract women; however, the moment they find out I'm poly with a husband AND a boyfriend, they immediately disappear. I get it, but damn...hurtful on my end. There is one woman I am interested in, but I haven't seen her at the shop where she works for a long time. Moreover, it makes me not want to try anymore. However, that would be silly because I really long for a female companion. I suppose I continue living and see where that goes.

[VirgoGirl]

Yeah I know how painful it can be. My problem is, i attract women but as soon as they have experienced what they needed and have had their fun, they leave me. Its like i'm a labrat they experiment on to see if they really want what they fantasise about. I on the other habd invest myself completely emotionally and get hurt in the end. Im so tired of this shit! I just want a girlfriend that can last in my life. I just want to love and share myself with someone. I have so much to offer but it feels like no one wants it. WTF??? I give up. Why can't i just be a normal heterosexual woman? Life would be so much easier.

[Ripley]

The best thing I can say is dont give up hope. I had my first relationship with a girl at 16 and waited till 40 odd to do it again. My partner met me in their 50s. You’re not hard work in any way, you just know what you want.

[VirgoGirl]

I can't remember the last time I dated a woman. It has been that long. I'm saddened, and it's not like I haven't tried either. It sucks because I'm an unwanted. I'm attached to a man, and to the other woman of interest, it seems like a trap.

I don't blame her for thinking that way...


HOWEVER,

It still sucks that others have ruined it for women like me. It's annoying af. Ughhh! I am not even interested in a triad. My husband and I agreed that Vee relationships are better for us. I just don't like triads. I am a one on one person. I just want a female companion. That's all.

Anyway, I'm just sitting here in the dark staring at the ceiling in bed wondering if I'll ever go on a date with a woman some time. Hell, I'll be delighted if she and I would be friends even. But it sucks when you have this desire but it fails to be fulfilled. I did all the right things to no avail. Anyway, just venting.

Words just can not express how much i relate to how you feel.

[VirgoGirl]

The best thing I can say is dont give up hope. I had my first relationship with a girl at 16 and waited till 40 odd to do it again. My partner met me in their 50s. You’re not hard work in any way, you just know what you want.

Yeah i guess we should not give up hope, cause where there's smoke, there is fire. Well, back in the saddle again for me ladies!

[CraftyNaBi27]

The thing is I haven't given up hope. I'm annoyed that there are so many women who have passed me up because I'm poly. I hate that I understand their hesitation and don't blame them; however, on the other hand, they're judging me! They're just as bad. So, I keep trying and getting hear broken that I kind of half ass look. I'm like, "well if the opportunity arises then great, but I'm not going to be all active either." It is exhausting.

I'm just frustrated. Where I live, bisexual women are hard to come by, and most are monogamous. So, there's that. I don't desire doing online searching. I'd rather go to events and meet others some events in my life have thrown a wrench into my plans. I at least want to make some LGBT friends.